Tension @ office

Recently alot of speculation are circulating around our office concerning our immediate future.
Well, i have to admit i'm one of the affected personnel, really create a tense feeling inside me.
It is saddening to fear that you are facing uncertainity when at one time you feel you are the top of the pyramid.
Perhaps in a big organisation, no one is indispensable.

From another prospective, yrs of hard work looks like going down the drain.
It sometimes make me wonder if i have made the right decision to work in this co for 4 yrs.
Restructuring is always ongoing but i feel that it is always aiming at the wrong direction.

Counter Strike Fever

Wow cannot imagine after so long, we still consistently playing CS almost every night albeit Sat or Sun due to weekend soccer frenzy. But then no matter how hard we try, still hard to defeat diablo and transporter. I keep wondering is it our fingers too slow,
or our reaction too slow? Maybe both ahahaha.

Anyway i find that it is a very high intensive game which keep your adrenalin flowing at a fast rate. Normally after a tough session, i wont be able to get to sleep immediately, need to watch some tv or relax before i can zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

I have been taking cab to work even though i night shift, incredible. I always tell myself to wake up on time but i never succeed.
Damn, my self discipline is getting from bad to worse.